Has anyone ever come into your life and forever changed it? Beyond new babies, wonderful friends, a family who is like no other family... beyond that? A special teacher, a stranger who showed up in your time of need, or someone living their life that encourages you to be better? Someone has for me and she doesn't even know it, she doesn't even know me. She is vulnerable before God, willing to go where He takes her, and open about her struggles. She hangs on special moments with her family and embraces looks, touches, words- she lives in the moment and soaks up God's blessings in the midst of trials. She deeply loves her husband and child and challenges me to hug a little tighter, try a little harder, dig a little deeper to be the best wife, mother, daughter, and friend that I can be. She shows no fear when she trusts in God with all her heart. I must admit- I fear surrendering wholly to God and his will. In my twisted way of thinking that allows him to mold me (into something better, I might add), I am scared of the process of how he will mold-- there are always growing pains associated with refinement, right? I sit here at this stage of life looking at my beautiful almost 9 month old baby in awe, loving my husband and the man God has transformed from great to wonderful, challenged in my job, happy in our church family, and I fear the time when something changes and hard times begin. But really, why should I fear my Maker-- who knows what I need before I ask it, who loves me enough to die for me, who counts the very hairs on my head- Oh me of little faith. So, my prayer is that God give me boldness to trust Him more in my life, to understand that He is the Author and Perfecter of life, not me. If the goal is to be more like Christ, I guess I'd better start letting Him in and stop missing the blessings He wants to give me. I have learned a lot from this wonderful woman and pray she continues to grow in the knowledge and grace of the Lord as He holds her closely-- to her, I know he would say "Well done, my good and faithful servant". And isn't THAT the goal in this life-- to please our Lord, not hang on to the fleeting things of this world.